Brain Dump 1

A part of me says I would switch into a better headspace naturally if only I can stop resisting and surrender. But then why is it so diffifult to not go with the flow? Why not just let things be?

The resistance in me is innate, something that forms naturally, a reaction to events around me. The first occurence of a thought stems from the idea of change or resistance to change. There is no flexibility, not atleast in thoughts. What this boils down to is the complexity in emotions and to an extent how I experience the life around me, how I indulge with people, places and myself when I am in a ‘foreign’ surrounding. And, and this is where I expect a shift in perspective when I go down the path of settling down with a partner.

Would I begin to see events differently? Would this shift put me on a path of unconditioning? It’s a loose take to find some meaning in all this. Maybe there’s none. What you believe in gives meaning. What do I believe in?

Written by Srijan who currently lives in Dehradun and spends his days tinkering with code, riding his motorbike, going on runs, and other imaginative things.
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